Please notice, I hate English, I try my best to translate it, if you can't stand it, please FaceTime me.
While suffering with my jet-lag after my summer break, I decided to rework on my website. I really haven't deal with it since 2012. I was pretty lazy about it, because I kept telling myself, my later work wasn't as good as before. Before graduate from Pratt, I was selected to enter portfolio showcase fair at ADC. From what I remember, there were tons of people with great portfolio. I felt weird being over there, because non of my work are even close to what others have done. I was never like the greatest student in my class in my standard, because there were so many other people are so good at graphic design, advertising design, and illustration. But I was lucky enough that I made a laser cut piece out of paper with typography element on it, and our chair love is. I end up donated that piece to Pratt, and received outstanding merit after graduate. It was really such an honor for me. While I was at the portfolio showcase, there were viewer asking me what I want to be in the future, since my work can't really be defined as in which area. I remember I told that person "I'm not sure." For the whole time, I kept staring at other people, handing out business card, making connection with head hunter, designers, with lots of pretty, nicely finished portfolio. It almost made me felt like I was in a factory, because everything seems so perfect, and new. Even the girl next to me, brought tons of jelly with graphic design on it, somehow, to bribe, you know.
Quarter-Life crisis, which is the things that I'm facing right now. Lots of my friend who graduated same year with me are earning 70K a year. Me? I'm earning knowledge and experience, ONLY. I went to Parsons after Pratt, for Fashion Design. Luckily enough I graduated in one and a half year. The last semester at Parsons was pretty hard for me, then I realized I don't like to make clothes at all. I ended up working with a stylist for four months. Being honest, without my fashion design background I wouldn't even went to styling, and I loved it. Now I'm planning to move back to my home, and that's why, I want to collect whatever I had done in US.
Because of all these "go around" experience, it made me realized that I never suit in any categories.
At Pratt, I wasn't trained to make stuff that sells. At Parsons, it was almost a nightmare, because they kept telling me I have to make stuff sells, and I ended up not putting that much effort for the last semester. I was pretty struggling. My work, has always been experimental, pushing the edge, and expressing myself, and you are going to see lots of uneven, deconstructed, or rebuild element in my work. To me, those elements represent the revolution inside of my hear, and the path that I experienced, or even a way to look for myself, understand myself. I see myself as an artist, rather than a designer, and I always want to inspire others, or even, they take action after seeing my work.
I always believe we are here for a reason, to deal with some charma or to give something to the world. Now I can accept whatever challenge that was given to me, and accept myself, not being stubborn about it. I love art and design, and I appreciate beauty. I remember once my high school teacher told me " if its in your blood, its in your blood". I'm sharing work that I produced for the past 4 years here, and also my daily life as an explorer, or whatever going to happen in the future, since I am going be everywhere, and here is where you can get an update from me, besides facebook, right in front of your computer.
There are some pieces here that I don't have time to elaborate more, or even to finish it. But now, I love the idea of "Process", and sometimes, they are even more beautiful than the result, because that's what forms us, or make us to become who we really are, isnt it?
Now, I hope my work can inspire you, and that will be something really beautiful.
I was never someone else, I am myself.
Pratt畢業之前，被選中去參加了portfolio show case fair，我坐在展場，和其他將近百位的同屆畢業生們，等待人頭公司的人，或是什麼設計公司的人來發掘我們。老實說，坐在那個地方，我感覺很怪。因為我一直以來都不能算是平面設計或是廣告設計很厲害的同學，但也就這麼一件Typography的鐳射雕刻作品，就讓我得到我們主任的賞識，甚至想把我的作品買下，最後我是無條件地捐給了學校。
當時在展場，有人就問我：所以你以後想要幹什麼？ 我說：我還不是很確定。 的確，當時的我真的不知道自己想要幹什麼。我眼巴巴的看著其他學校的學生們，拿著精美的作品集，透明壓克力的，鐵的，木頭的，竹子的，那封面新的讓人彷彿置身在工廠內。你知道，平面設計學生會很講究包裝，坐我旁邊的甚至連一罐罐的果醬都出動了（果醬上面有包裝設計）當然，那時的我絕對沒有想到，此刻的我正籌劃著要離開紐約了。
2014. 9. 7.